004; Kitty Chow - [Public Video.]

[unweeping_willow]

 [A pair of yellow eyes momentarily viewed the comm screen, before Willow backed the communicator away - her face carefully still as she struggled to ignore the kitten atop her head, and the smile tugging at the corner's of her mouth.

Madame Smudge, for her part, was more interested in the communicator than the vampire nested beneath her magnificent belly. Her claw darted - momentarily filling up the screen before Willow again maneuvered it away.] 


Does anyone know where to get kitty food?

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[scarlet_discord]

Because I...

I can't take it anymore.

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[unweeping_willow]

[She hesitated, reaching out to take the woman's hand.]

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[scarlet_discord]

[Wanda squeezes her hand back but there isn't much strength in it.]

A lot of the Wardens think that I'm just a whiny self-pitying baby who thinks my suffering makes me special. They don't understand what it's like to have no one but yourself for so long it cracks your fucking mind. Nor do they care.

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[unweeping_willow]

I do... Kinda. [She hesitated.] I mean, I had Xander, but then....

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[scarlet_discord]

I just don't understand. It's like people are completely okay with what happened to me and generally just don't give a fuck. And these are the good guys.

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[unweeping_willow]

[She shrugged.] People don't like thinking.

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[scarlet_discord]

They don't care. These so called heroes don't give a fuck what I went through back home or here. They just want me to shut up, obey, and pretend everything is fine.

I don't want to be one of them anymore. What kind of a fucking hero hears about someone else's suffering and tells them to shut up?

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[unweeping_willow]

[The slayer. ...I used to torture them. A lot.

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[scarlet_discord]

I don't want to torture them. I just want to get away. You know, even given the opportunity I bet almost none of them would have saved me.

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[unweeping_willow]

You don't think so?

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[scarlet_discord]

No, I don't. These are the same people who stood by without comment while I was kept so depowered by my first Warden that I was scared all the time. Even after his own boyfriend kidnapped me and held me captive for three days, the guy wouldn't increase my powers. I've been scared every day I have been here for over a year.

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[unweeping_willow]

Does that happen a lot? People getting kidnapped?

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[scarlet_discord]

At least once every six months. Nobody really does anything about it. If it happens to you, don't expect anyone but your immediate friends to react. My own Warden didn't even come looking for me. He just asked his boyfriend to look, the worthless lazy fuck.

His boyfriend was the one who kidnapped me.

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[unweeping_willow]

A low growl in the back of her throat - followed by looking down; she'd rescue Wanda. If she had to.

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[scarlet_discord]

It's fine. I'll focus on the few people who actually care and ignore the rest. It will be easier from now on anyway.

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[unweeping_willow]

I guess... [She couldn't quite meet Wanda's eyes, though.]

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[scarlet_discord]

What's wrong?

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[unweeping_willow]

It just seems...

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[scarlet_discord]

yeah?

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[unweeping_willow]

Sad...

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[scarlet_discord]

Don't mean to make you sad. You're pretty cool and you're always nice to me.

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[unweeping_willow]

Just sorta... sad; that it has to be that way.

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[scarlet_discord]

Me too. I tried so hard to be nice and friendly and get to know people. But I've been disappointed so many times.

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[unweeping_willow]

World sucks...

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[scarlet_discord]

People suck. For the most part.

When I get out of here, if I ever get out of here, I'm going to Monaco, cleaning out a rich guy's baccarat game and then buying some land as far away from people as I possibly can.